Today I find myself at Black Oak Casino located on Tuolumne, CA. My wife of 49 years loves card games, and as for me after 30 minutes of the slot machines, 60 minutes tops I’m done. So, often on these outings I’ve learned not to pester to much, and let her have her fun. For Darrelle it’s socialization, recreation, and pure joy. For me it’s boredom after an hour but, I have to find things to do for another 4-5 hours. If my heel wasn’t bothering me I’d hike for an hour or so. I can’t do that today so I’ll spend more time reading and writing. Anyway here I am and you are the fortunate, or unfortunate readers of this posting.
Like before I’m very interested in insuring that what I do is in-line with what God has planned for me. I’m still struggling with what I believe is lacking patience probably when most needed. I find myself being most inpatient with myself. This is a problem. I think I expect God to give me clues and insights on my time table. We know God doesn’t operate like that. You’d think I would have learned after all these years. Anyway I’m still waiting for some sign, some clue, some signal. It will come, I know it will. Here is where my patience will be tested.
Update: scripture has given me a big clue. Many scripture verses point to the fact that we just need to put our faith and trust in God. The Holy Spirit whom he has put into our hearts through his Son Jesus Christ will guide us in the correct path for our lives. It seems like it simply boils down to faith and trust, and not to use our own understanding. But, we need to grow beyond our own understanding.
Believe, trust, and have faith. God will guide us, provide for us, and will point the way we need to go. His will for our life is simple: love Him, trust Him, and have faith that we will learn God’s will for our life. And we need to check- in with Him often especially when needing to make big decisions, small decisions also. The more we consult him the closer we will get to him.
I am beginning to put more trust in Jesus, and someday I’ll be able to let loose completely, and able to put all my faith and trust in Jesus. I need to learn to fully let go, and trust Jesus completely. I think I finely see the light, and I’m getting closer to practicing what I’m trying to teach others. I think one of the keys is patience with oneself and others. Stay tuned, and have a blessed day. Carbie
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